If you're in a state of confusion, pray to Allah. Pray to Him to give you internal happiness, to guide you, to show you signs of Islam being the real and true religion.
Although most (almost all) scholars agree on the fact that purposefully neglecting Salah/prayer means you are no longer a part of Islam, I would like to encourage you by saying that don't worry; Allah forgives anything and everything. Take it in - a prostitute will make it to Jannah on the basis of feeding a dog - I'm sure she didn't pray or follow any if not all of the 5 basic pillars of Islam. This is not to say that don't pray and just feed a dog instead. Point is, anything can be forgiven.
I urge you Shazzy. It's Ramadan and good deeds are only multiplied here. The best 10 days of the year are coming up. Fast, repent, pray, and make tons of Dua to Allah to help you and guide you, to provide you with internal happiness, and to forgive all your past sins and iA grant you Jannah.
You still have a long way to go in life and NOTHING's lost yet. Just don't ever give up on Islam bro. Trust me there's thousands of people converting to this beautiful religion as we speak, and almost every other day in our local Masjid people are finding the truth and are converting to Islam. Our very own [MENTION=131701]Mamoon[/MENTION] here asked Allah to show him signs, and he got those signs from Allah.
You go walking to Allah, and He will come running (metaphorically) to you.
Try this and let me know if it works out. Don't listen to anyone on here bro.
Best of luck, and may Allah grant us both Jannah together - Ameen.