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The fact that school is starting soon. The fact that there's still 3 days until Pakistan's game. The fact that Ajmal has been reported. :(
 
When was that? Before coming to usa or before taking anti-deps?

before taking anti-deps. I am not sure if that is causing it. I have had tears seeing people being beheaded. I also cried one day when someone at PP made a personal remark about me (in Dec 2012), and I took a month long break after that.

Now, no matter how much cruelty I see, nothing affects me. But yes, if it children I feel slight uncomfortable, so my heart is still in its right place.
 
before taking anti-deps. I am not sure if that is causing it. I have had tears seeing people being beheaded. I also cried one day when someone at PP made a personal remark about me (in Dec 2012), and I took a month long break after that.

Now, no matter how much cruelty I see, nothing affects me. But yes, if it children I feel slight uncomfortable, so my heart is still in its right place.
Why on earth would you watch a beheading video?! I know there's an odd inner compulsion, almost a primal desire, bit still... Once i saw an execution of Pakistani soldiers by the Taliban and even that took something out of me. Beheadings are a thousand times more intense.
 
Why on earth would you watch a beheading video?! I know there's an odd inner compulsion, almost a primal desire, bit still... Once i saw an execution of Pakistani soldiers by the Taliban and even that took something out of me. Beheadings are a thousand times more intense.

Just to test my pain threshold, which is very high, i guess. just a while ago I was searching at images of soldiers killed and mutilated. did not fill any discomfort knowing that each is a person with a mom, dad, kids, dreams. anyway i think it is better that i don't feel for anyone else, otherwise it will be difficult to enjoy my life.
 
before taking anti-deps. I am not sure if that is causing it. I have had tears seeing people being beheaded. I also cried one day when someone at PP made a personal remark about me (in Dec 2012), and I took a month long break after that.

Now, no matter how much cruelty I see, nothing affects me. But yes, if it children I feel slight uncomfortable, so my heart is still in its right place.

Numbing down of emotions is a commonly mentionned although poorly studied (for obvious reasons) effect of anti-deps.
It's possible that the reason behind that is the fact that, while depressed, one feels an excess of negative emotions but, when those go away, it feels like there is a void behind even if the emotions one feels are normal by anyone's standard under the circumstances of a person who has been isolated for a long time (which, I think, was your case).

Anyways, there is a movie called ''Garden State'' about a guy who has been on anti-deps ever since he was a child and he goes back to his home town when his mother dies (although he doesn't feel anything about it). I think it would interest you.
 
Forgot my cell,s charger in office battery getting low have to charge with data cable
 
I am moving to the most posh area in the city, and wanted to rent a penthouse..but settled for a normal apartment just a floor below the penthouse. feeling remorse now. would have loved to look down at humans like they are insects from the private terrace.
 
I am moving to the most posh area in the city, and wanted to rent a penthouse..but settled for a normal apartment just a floor below the penthouse. feeling remorse now. would have loved to look down at humans like they are insects from the private terrace.

You can play video games and buy a penthouse in there.
 
I returned home after a 20+ hour journey to learn that my best friend's father passed away..

It's like the entire joy of my return home has been sucked out. She had always stood by me whenever I needed her, and I can't believe this happened to her....

I can't smile, I can't laugh.. I can't help but think if GOD FORBID something ever goes wrong (Allah kabhi na karay!!), I'll be stuck literally on the other side of the planet, all alone, and .... I can't even share these thoughts with my parents, bec I know they'd freak out.. I'm just really confused and upset right now..

To think at this situation, I'm thinking over all that could go wrong with me. Caring about my hide. What sort of a person am I....

May Allah swt pour His blessings on uncle jee as well as my friend's family, ameen!
 
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I returned home after a 20+ hour journey to learn that my best friend's father passed away..

It's like the entire joy of my return home has been sucked out. She had always stood by me whenever I needed her, and I can't believe this happened to her....

I can't smile, I can't laugh.. I can't help but think if GOD FORBID something ever goes wrong (Allah kabhi na karay!!), I'll be stuck literally on the other side of the planet, all alone, and .... I can't even share these thoughts with my parents, bec I know they'd freak out.. I'm just really confused and upset right now..

To think at this situation, I'm thinking over all that could go wrong with me. Caring about my hide. What sort of a person am I....

May Allah swt pour His blessings on uncle jee as well as my friend's family, ameen!

that kills me everyday :(
 
that my teacher ms.something just came to tell me that if i dont finish the writers purpose progect im going to get detention and an automatic zero
 
that my teacher ms.something just came to tell me that if i dont finish the writers purpose progect im going to get detention and an automatic zero

Well you know what to do then :)


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My gold fish died several days ago :(. My little cousin named him Carrot. R.I.P Carrot
 
Backache. Economics test. My unforgivable tendency to slack off and procrastinate at the most inconvenient of times.
 
Unable to sleep. I was insulted today. Was told that I am not good enough for someone's daughter. Seething with anger and unable to sleep.
 
Unable to sleep. I was insulted today. Was told that I am not good enough for someone's daughter. Seething with anger and unable to sleep.

It could be her loss, mostly it will be yours. She will move on, marry someone else and dance on top of Swiss Alps. Listen to sad songs for a month, be depressed. Then wake up, shave your beard and become a rapper. Then you will almost have all the women you want to marry.
 
It could be her loss, mostly it will be yours. She will move on, marry someone else and dance on top of Swiss Alps. Listen to sad songs for a month, be depressed. Then wake up, shave your beard and become a rapper. Then you will almost have all the women you want to marry.

First thing is that she proposed to me, and wants to marry me. She asked her father to talk to me. I don't even love her, but want to marry because she loves me. Second thing is that I am too good for any girl ( at least I thought so), so being told that I am not good enough has angered me. She told me that she never saw me angry like now. Her father wants her to marry a doctor, in a doctor family, so that they can set up and run their own hospital, and doesn't understand what my work from home means. Plus I am not the same caste and from a poor family (I think the poorest among PP). But since me ego has been challenged, I want to show him what I am, and will throw money at his feet, to show how much I can earn. From today I will be a money making machine.
 
First thing is that she proposed to me, and wants to marry me. She asked her father to talk to me. I don't even love her, but want to marry because she loves me. Second thing is that I am too good for any girl ( at least I thought so), so being told that I am not good enough has angered me. She told me that she never saw me angry like now. Her father wants her to marry a doctor, in a doctor family, so that they can set up and run their own hospital, and doesn't understand what my work from home means. Plus I am not the same caste and from a poor family (I think the poorest among PP). But since me ego has been challenged, I want to show him what I am, and will throw money at his feet, to show how much I can earn. From today I will be a money making machine.

Trolling on PP must pay more than I thought :baelish
 
Physics test. Haven't studied for it yet cuz I was watching WWE and the PPV wasn't that good either.
 
Unable to sleep. I was insulted today. Was told that I am not good enough for someone's daughter. Seething with anger and unable to sleep.

It's okay bro - you can show them in 10 years this was a mistake. Earn loads of $$$ and buy their hospital.
 
First thing is that she proposed to me, and wants to marry me. She asked her father to talk to me. I don't even love her, but want to marry because she loves me. Second thing is that I am too good for any girl ( at least I thought so), so being told that I am not good enough has angered me. She told me that she never saw me angry like now. Her father wants her to marry a doctor, in a doctor family, so that they can set up and run their own hospital, and doesn't understand what my work from home means. Plus I am not the same caste and from a poor family (I think the poorest among PP). But since me ego has been challenged, I want to show him what I am, and will throw money at his feet, to show how much I can earn. From today I will be a money making machine.

Do you really want to marry a girl who uses caste as to break up with you ? No girl is worth marrying if she were to say that you are not good enough. You are better of without her.
 
Finals starting on Saturday and I feel I'm under prepared, thanks to addiction with cricket and PP.
 
Been debugging an issue since morning...found the issue..but still thinking on how to fix it. Needed to take my mind of it for a while..so I can think again.
 
Been trying to sleep for last hour..


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Not being able to watch the match live I am currently in the office.


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I need a hair cut, it is 25min walk or a 10 min bus wait for 2 buses each to my friend's salon. Very confused to either walk or take a bus and the temperature outside is like -5 degrees Celsius.
 
I need a hair cut, it is 25min walk or a 10 min bus wait for 2 buses each to my friend's salon. Very confused to either walk or take a bus and the temperature outside is like -5 degrees Celsius.

Get a taxi.


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my semester exams are like a week away. what is bothering me is that i am not bothered about it at all.
 
I've zero discipline these days. Zero. And I am aware that there is a limit to how lucky I can get in life.

Need to get my ish together. Badly.
 
Pakistani playing 11 selectors...


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just not able to concentrate on studies. no matter how much i try, i get distracted by something. heck even staring at the wall becomes more interesting while studying.
 
Got rejected by my first choice uni.

Write them a Rejection-of-Rejection-Letter Letter. Like so:

Graduate Admissions Committee
Department of Psychology
Big Deal University
Collegeville, USA

Dear Committee Members:

Thanks for your letter of March 30. After careful consideration, I regret to inform you that I am unable to accept your rejection at this time.

This year I have been particularly fortunate in receiving an unusually large number of rejection letters. With such a varied and promising field of schools, it is impossible for me to accept all refusals.

Despite your outstanding record and previous experience in rejecting applicants, I find that your rejection does not meet my current career needs. Consequently, I will begin taking classes as a graduate student in your department this August. I look forward to seeing you then.

Best of luck in rejecting future applicants.

Sincerely Yours,
[Name Withheld]
 
Write them a Rejection-of-Rejection-Letter Letter. Like so:

Graduate Admissions Committee
Department of Psychology
Big Deal University
Collegeville, USA

Dear Committee Members:

Thanks for your letter of March 30. After careful consideration, I regret to inform you that I am unable to accept your rejection at this time.

This year I have been particularly fortunate in receiving an unusually large number of rejection letters. With such a varied and promising field of schools, it is impossible for me to accept all refusals.

Despite your outstanding record and previous experience in rejecting applicants, I find that your rejection does not meet my current career needs. Consequently, I will begin taking classes as a graduate student in your department this August. I look forward to seeing you then.

Best of luck in rejecting future applicants.

Sincerely Yours,
[Name Withheld]

Time pass POTW :))) :)) :96

Sorry Nostalgic but I have to reject your rejection of a rejection. I look forward to not seeing you soon :P
 
I completed my CIMA exams in March 2011 and have STILL not completed my Logbook/Performance Evaluation Report!!!!!
 
I proof read my university application 10 times before sending it off. But i didn't proof read it again one last time just before sending it off and now im thinking that i should of:facepalm:
 
Time pass POTW :))) :)) :96

Sorry Nostalgic but I have to reject your rejection of a rejection. I look forward to not seeing you soon :P

QOTW actually. I copied it off the interwebs. I sent one like this to McGill and Berkeley back in 2006.

P.S. I reject your rejection of my rejection of your rejection. I'm coming to Ireland, and we're going backpacking through Roscommon and Offaly.
 
Tailor has mistaken in stitching of pants have returned it to him for alteration it has ruined my plan ab vo cheez nhi hogi:(
 
Unable to sleep. I was insulted today. Was told that I am not good enough for someone's daughter. Seething with anger and unable to sleep.

Today I learnt that my future father in law said that he will not let his daughter marry a bangladeshi. I just lol'd. not everyone who comes from Bengal is a bangladeshi. I guess once he becomes my official father in law, I will have to teach him a few things.
 
Manager asking to push untested code due to time pressure from his boss.....he wont listen to me when I ask him until mid Wednesday..

So going to production today with untested code...except my basic testing In development.
 
Manager asking to push untested code due to time pressure from his boss.....he wont listen to me when I ask him until mid Wednesday..

So going to production today with untested code...except my basic testing In development.

Say "Its is a brave decision and a brave responsibility you have taken sir" and carry on with your day. The word "responsibility" will make him think twice.
 
Today I learnt that my future father in law said that he will not let his daughter marry a bangladeshi. I just lol'd. not everyone who comes from Bengal is a bangladeshi. I guess once he becomes my official father in law, I will have to teach him a few things.

The word "senior home" comes to my mind along with involuntary "eye and brain donation". What else you got thinking ?
 
Another horrible practice session. Thats 3 in a row. Got to see the Canadian team practice again for the first 30 minutes and truly you need high testosterone to play cricket along with explosive power. There goes my cricketing dream along with being a pilot, rapper, and a movie star.....back to Don Bradman Cricket 14 to take some revenge :mj
 
I am finding it hard to keep up with teenagers on my favorite surface. Although its been more than a couple of years since I last played any sport, but when a fat kid starts taking it easy on you, it is embarrassing. I have also noticed that I am a lot slower now when it comes to solving puzzles.

These are obviously signs of premature ageing, as 24 is the age when a man hits his prime. Only positive I felt was that I still possess the strongest throwing arm around, and surprisingly, my bowling actually seemed to have gained a couple of yards in speed (accompanied with loss in stamina).
 
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