There you go.
I was not raised in such an environment but my parents did get more religious as they grew older but I was already out of the house and on my feet at that point so it didn't bothered me that much personally.
I was a panch-waqt namazi as a child. Was the youngest in my family when I finished reading the whole Quran and started fasting in Ramazan in the grueling summer of Karachi. My path was set.
But then came my exposure to movies and music and other "fun stuff". Tried balancing both things together but to no avail. Namaz became a chore and fasting in Ramazan became an excuse to stuff myself during Sehri and Iftari and sleep all day. Religion lots its meaning other than during exam time when my namaz and dua's took on an immediate intimacy and passion.
Then came college and a bad breakup. My world turned upside and I lost all interest in everything. Started questioning the existence of God, my purpose in life, what have I achieved after all those years of namaz and fasting other than trying to make my parents happy and portray an image of a "good boy" so they can be proud of me. I studied Quran with meanings for the first time in detail. I failed to see its appeal. I spoke with friends who were more religiously inclined and asked them pointed questions about the existence of God, of heaven and hell but never got any satisfactory replies. I became a closet atheist. I did most of everything forbidden in Islam. Nothing changed. Life went on. Nothing really completed me.
After all these years now I have come to realize the importance of religion in peoples life. Why without it life can be unbearable. Its hard to live when fully realized that ones life is so transient and insignificant in the whole scheme of things. That one has very little control over their lives and things often happen in a random and unexplainable way. People die in car accidents, perfectly healthy people suddenly get cancer. There is no explanation to it. The clock keeps ticking, the world keep spinning. Not waiting for anything or anybody.
The only thing that remains of any consequence in this bleak and morbid existence is nature and art. Its music, literature, poetry, film, paintings, etc. That is what transcends a person into a someone bigger than his measly existence. This is what makes us humans. Nothing should stand in the way of you appreciating such treasures.
Life is short. Enjoy while you can.
I do not understand what you are trying to say here. Are you saying that you want to have fun in life because life is too short, so Islam wasn’t for you, but you understand how religion can bring peace to an individual’s mind?
My experience is similar to yours. Born into a Muslim family, raised to read Namaz, practised Ramdaan etc. Had a bad patch in my life, aborted Islam, and started questioning everything, including God. However the difference is my faith in God was reinforced after I started searching for answers. I pretty much studied all aspects of life mainly various Ideologies and Philosophies, including Atheism and other religions. In the end, I was convinced God does exist. I didn’t ask Mullah’s, or friends, or even educated religious folk.
Upon reading the Qur’an in a language I understood, I realised that Islam in the Qur’an is very simple and set straight claims in Hadiths and History. Everything was clear. No more contradictions. It all made sense. Islam is a disciplined way of life yet the Mullahs and Politicians are the ones who have politicized Islam for personal gain, leaving Islam’s perception and understanding in a complete utter mess. This also applies to other religions.
I also realised that certain practises outside of Islam are no different to practises in Islam, at a very fundamental level – just a different label and cause.
1. 5 prayers a day – This is no different to exercising throughout the day.
2. Ramadan/Fasting - This is no different to a person on a strict diet or a detox.
3. Wudu 5 times a day - This is no different to someone who maintains cleanliness.
The list goes on. The issue however is the stigma attached to religion. If I say I fast for a period of a month, people will laugh and mock God etc. If I say I am on a detox/diet, they will be supportive. The difference? One is because God guides one to, the other is because people need to. I will take God’s guidance over people’s needs.
As for fun. It doesn’t take a genius to see there is more to life than the typical artificially induced fun that comes in the form of boozing/drugs etc. Does Islam forbid intoxication, yes. But is intoxication fun? No. It’s a desperate attempt at feeling happy through artificial means. This is the key, happiness.
Once I understood the beauty and simplicity of Islam, my God given life is now full of meaning, fun, and happiness. I can still practise and follow the principles of Islam while having fun with family and friends; watching movies, sport, listening to music, going on holiday, going to the park, playing games, or just simply meeting up. I also realised that people can live without booze/drugs etc, but people can barely survive without friends and families. Loneliness can be a curse.
All in all it boils down to how one describes fun. If fun is wanton sex, boozing, drugs, gambling etc -then one has incredibly low standards which are not compatible with any religion, not just Islam. If fun is appreciating life and spending the short life with things that matter such as family, making the most of time, then you’re on to a winner.